Thursday, 29 April 2010

Do What You Love

I've decided I don't love writing poems to order, it's beginning to feel like flogging myself with a birch branch. So, although the finishing line is so close, I can't be arsed to carry on. Neither can I see the point, I've already missed a few days anyway, and I'm still here. That's not to say I don't think I've learnt some useful stuff during this time, I'm just not quite sure what it is yet. So why not move onto something I do love?

What do I love?

I love dancing. I love philosophy. I love writing prose. And I love getting so into a project that I lose myself in it to the extent I forget what day it is, and to eat, and even wash. And it feels the time is right for my next project, it's been simmering away for a couple of years, I've even done the first two chapters, but now I really want to immerse myself in it. So I may be around here a little less frequently for a while. Time to get back to real life.

Another thing I love is an ebullient boy, and thanks to Meri reminding me about TED by posting a marvellous (if unrelated) video on her blog, I found this one today:


Alesa Warcan said...

You love dancing? What kind?

Glad to hear you'll be doing what you love.

Gambatte on the writing project!
I'm sure you'll do swimmingly well!

Titus said...

Yep, best option, and if you can choose, grab it with both hands.

The girl done well though on napowrimo. Made me think about it for next year. I like prompt kicks.

angryparsnip said...

I have enjoyed reading your poems but to be able to write what you want... that is the best !

Rachel Fox said...

I've never done the poem a day thing...it may suit some but it wouldn't be for me (certainly not at this stage with so much family business to do every day). One a week with the Poetry Bus is enough for me! Plus I like the thinking time as much as the writing time.

Good luck with the new project. We'll miss you but when the work has to be done it has to be done!


Eryl Shields said...

Alesa ~ the sort of dancing you do in clubs to the kind of music djs play, you know when you can lose yourself in a tune and although you know there are lots of other people all around you lose awareness of them? I'm not sure that it has a name, though the music might.

Not sure how long before economic stuff pulls me away from total devotion, but hopefully I'll have enough time to get into the swing of things.

Is gambatte Japanese for good luck?

Titus ~ it seems silly really to have not seized the opportunity before now, but I guess I've been wool-gathering.

I'd love to see you doing it next year. I like prompt kicks too, but have found that some miss my bottom and get me in the temples rendering me unconscious!

Parsnip ~ isn't it? And it really should be embraced wholly.

Rachel ~ you certainly have far too much to deal with at present, trying to do a poem a day would just be masochistic. I like thinking time too, and I think that's been one of the problems doing this: I've begun to feel a bit like a mechanized comedy poet.

I'll still be around, coming up for air occasionally, and checking in to see what you are all doing.

Alesa Warcan said...

Oh, I see... I'm utter rubbish at that kind of dancing. I find I can't conjure the physical abandonment it requires... I may be a control freak when it comes to my body, I can't surrender it to the music... I work better with dances where I can think through the steps and execute them in time. I always slightly envy people who feel dancing the way you described it.

Gambatte is one of those Japanese words that puts a lot into a small package. It means:
Go get them!
Do your best!
I'm rooting for you!
Good luck!
Be hearty!
Keep your chin up/stiff upper lip!
And more...

Essentially, it's an expression of encouragement and confidence in the other that can have a ton of circumstantial nuances.
Well, it's not a goodbye, but it doesn't have to be for me to say that it's been a pleasure making your acquaintance.

Elisabeth said...

I love to write about watever it is that comes into my mind first thing in the morning before I am cluttered up with the distractions of the day.

No rules, no regulations, no demands, just me and the page.

Gadjo Dilo said...

Who's Ted? Is he the ebullient boy? Sounds good! If you like dancing and want to have some fun, I'd advise you to take dance classes - it's a whole community unto itself, often very focussed and passionate and good fun to be with.

Kim Ayres said...

Photography, philosophy, conversations, playing music, challenging ideas, creativity.

But sleep would be good too. Or at least an absence of tiredness :)

Kass said...

Good for you! I've enjoyed your poems immensely. I actually misread,"...flogging myself with a bitch branch." - and really rather liked it.

Pat said...

I watched the video. We don't seem to nurture that mind set over here. At least I don't watch 'Lost'.
I like hos idea of doing what you love.

Eryl Shields said...

Alesa ~ I've never been able to do proper dances with steps. My mother once tried to teach me to waltz and we ended up on the carpet in hysterics about my ineptitude.

Gambatte is my kind of word!


Elizabeth ~ I used to do that all the time, every morning, but had to stop because my husband now works from home and can't deal with me blanking him. So now I do it at night once he's gone to bed, it's not quite the same but I'm getting better at discharging the day.

Gadjo ~ TED is an organisation that has a brilliant website full of interesting videoed talks by innovators, artists, scientists, educators and the like. It's well worth a look.

I wonder if there is a dance class here I could try, I'll check it out, you make it sound such fun.

Kim ~ I can do nothing if I am tired, and I don't think I've ever experienced the kind of tiredness you live with, so that you actually manage to do all of those things is bloody impressive.

Kass ~ 'bitch branch' is fab, and actually captures the feeling I was trying to describe much more wholly.

I'm glad you enjoyed my poems, thank you.

Pat ~ we don't do we? Though there is now a movement within education to try and change that, thank goodness. Whether it will succeed or not is another matter, we are a terribly normative culture.

I have to confess that I watch 'Lost' obsessively, but it is the only thing I watch and it will soon be over, so I don't feel too bad.

Anonymous said...

You have a big appetite for all-consuming projects.

Eryl Shields said...

Jenny ~ I do, I like to be eaten alive over and over.

Golden West said...

Do stop by when time allows. It's always a pleasure visiting with you!

Sharon Longworth said...

Eryl, I've so enjoyed my daily visits to your blog - I'll miss popping by, so hope you'll keep posting at least every now and then. And perhaps we could have a few early peeks at your new big project? anyway, best of luck with it.

Eryl Shields said...

Golden ~ I will definitely stop by, and I'm thinking about trying to allocate myself a certain amount of blog time each week: a couple of hours on Sundays and Wednesdays, say.

Sharon ~ I don't think the new project will make any sense at all in peeks, especially in the early stages. But (and see my reply to Golden, above) I will endeavour to keep blogging as I actually find it quite useful for my writing as well as fun.

Philip said...

Don't you dare stop blogging. See it as a biscuit compared to your three course meal.
Throw me some crumbs.
Happy writing.

Golden West said...

Ah, just an early bird, nothing so exciting as a night on the town - mostly up around 4 most days.

Eryl Shields said...

Philip ~ now, how often, I am wondering, can I allow myself a biscuit (or a three course meal)?

Golden ~ up at 4? That's about the time I go to bed.

angryparsnip said...

Gambatte is a great word... as Alesa said
I always use it as in "fighting" more than but similar "to do your best" which means so much more in Japan.
Little kids will hold their fists upright in a little clench near there chest when they say it...too cute
So for Alesa to say that to you is perfect !

Kathryn Magendie said...

I just posted about my blogging so erratic lately - but, you know, life life life life life life life! *smiling*

Mark Sanderson said...

You hit the nail on the head there Eryl. Do what you love, otherwise you can't be arsed.

A Cuban In London said...

It'd be safe to assume that you're a very passionate and committed person. :-)Loved this post. Many thanks.

Greetings from London.

A Cuban In London said...

You cracked me up completely with your latest comment. I would say that Clegg was the Viagra and still it flopped, so surgery is needed now. :-)

Greetings from London.

Eryl Shields said...

Parsnip ~ I love this word, now I just need to know how to pronounce it.

Kathryn ~ smiling back atcha!

Mark ~ quite often I can't be arsed to do even that!

Cuban ~ passionate and committed sounds much nicer than single minded, which is what I sometimes fear I am. Glad you liked the post.

I think you are right, surgery is the only possible option now.